25 Random Things from Facebook

I wrote this for my Facebook account after being tagged by like a dozen people. Thought I would post it here for those that don't 'do' Facebook. Started out doing it as a lark, but I think I actually learned a few things about myself that I didn't expect.. and it was more painful than I thought it would be. Haven't posted here in awhile, going to try to get back in the habit again...

25 Random Things

In no particular order:

1. Joe Furedy is my soul mate- the love of my life. I could not go more than a day without talking to him. I fell in love with him when I was 14 years old, and I have not stopped loving him since.
2. That being said, I really wish I had met Joe 10 years later... to give both of us the chance to have experienced more things.
3. Giving birth naturally to my children (no drugs, no interventions) and breastfeeding both of them are two of my greatest accomplishments in life.
4. I love to listen to music and I love to sing- loudly. I usually only do this when I am in the car by myself. Usually.
5. I love shopping at Target. I shop there at least once a week, usually more like 2 or 3 times. This has only gotten worse since they built a SuperTarget that has groceries down the street.
6. Mexican food is the best food on the face of the planet. I could eat Mexican food every single day without hesitation.
7. I drink TOO much Diet Coke- at least 64 oz every day. I cannot function without it.
8. I love my children more than life itself. I cannot imagine where I would be or what I would be like without their presence in my life every single day.
9. That being said, most days I like one of my children much more than the other one. And I feel horribly guilty about that most of the time.
10. I need time by myself every single day. If I don't have it, I get really cranky.
11. One of my biggest regrets is that I have NEVER learned to read music or play an instrument. (which is a shame because- see #4)
12. I think Joe and I have often chosen the path in life that is safe, rather than the path in life that was right when it comes to jobs, school, etc.
13. In my adult life I have been every size between a 4 and a 14 (and possibly bigger but at some point I stopped buying clothes), and I have hated my body at each and every size.
14. I would love to have another baby with Joe.
15. However, sometimes I can't wait until my kids are older and we have more time for just the two of us.
16. I have kissed ONE man in my entire life. One. (see #1 and #2)
17. I really like to swear. The 'f' word really is my favorite. I try to keep myself from doing it, but some days....
18. My mother is my best friend (outside of Joe), but some days that is really hard.
19. One of my biggest goals for myself in the future is to run a marathon. But, since I run 3-4 miles every single day and that just about kills me, I wonder if I'll ever get fit enough to do it.
20. I read every day while I blow dry my hair. I read anything and everything. I usually have 4-5 books going at any given time.
21. I rarely allow myself to drink because of the genes that I have inherited, and I am horribly afraid I will become an alcoholic.
22. I want a tattoo. Badly. I have researched tattooing, looked at all sorts of designs, and found out which shops nearby are the best- with good artists and good safety procedures. But, I have yet to dig up the nerve to actually go get one. I swear I will when I reach my ideal body weight. We'll see.
23. I have strong faith and believe in God. I pray every day, and believe that he is my savior. I have not regularly attended church for the last 10 years because I can't find a church where my family 'fits'.
24. I want to go back to school and get a PhD. But, I worry that in doing so, people would figure out that I am not really that smart. I also worry that adding the stress of school to our already busy lives would ruin my marriage.
25. I worry way too much about what other people think. All the time. I've read this about 20 times worrying about what everybody will think about it...